Jason's Untimely Thoughts

I receive lots of e-mails every day under normal circumstances.   There’s been nothing resembling normal circumstances for quite a while, so e-mails have been coming in even more heavily. Someone recently told me that they’d heard I “liked to type, not talk”.  I don’t think that’s always true, but it does seem to have some truth at the moment.

It’s not that I like it more, it’s just that I can force myself to force the words to come from my keyboard, where when talking I tend to become distracted by other things, other people, and other thoughts.  Prior to typing I can get up, shut my door, turn on some Pandora (they should be paying me), and hammer it out.

It’s frustrating to not be able to talk, however.  I’ve mentioned it before, but the times with friends and family is too short, yet I’m too often unable to have any meaningful conversation.  Lots of times that is because of the aforementioned distractions, some of which will be of the running around and causing trouble variety, but it’s also because none of us, me nor you, have any clue what to say most of the time.  There’s nothing to be said that can make anything better, there’s fear of saying something that can make things worse (although that seems unlikely too), and some thoughts of whether whatever is even appropriate or not given the circumstances.

Similarly, I know people from all over still very much want to help.  Further, I know I want people to help.  It doesn’t solve the dilemna, however, that I have no idea how you can help either.  The dinners have been great, but I have not many suggestions beyond that.

I think most of you are feeling mostly the same way.  Wanting to help, wanting to talk, but not really knowing how to accomplish any of that either.  I think that is also contributing to the e-mail influx.  You like to type, not talk, too, at least to me.

All that said, I do enjoy receiving the e-mails.  While I may not always respond, and may even put off reading them for a while, and may certainly be losing some work productivity, they’re good for me to read.

More than most times, I wish there was time and circumstances available for general hanging out.  Amongst any and all.  I feel like that’s what most of us are missing, from each other and from Sarah, yet the world keeps spinning and that time is hard to grab.

Speaking of hard to grab, so are the Tigers, now that they’re Unleashed.  14-0.